3 more days....

I got through the day ok but it wasn't a very easy one. I'm sad, I am tired of all the bills and tired of these long days waiting for results that I know someone already has. Today was painful and that didn't help my mood. I know I usually don't post like this but I do occasionally have days that are tougher than I am. Vulnerability has taught me a lot and good things that can come from it, so I thought I would post exactly what I thought of today. I hope everyone had abetted day than I did - and I can't wait to try again tomorrow, it has to be better than today!

PET scan and my loving family!!

I had a PET scan this morning. I went alone despite my husband and dad offering to go with me. The scan takes a few hours and no one can come back with you so I thought I would just let them go on with their normal routine. My hubby has been working graveyard shift and only had a few hours to nap before going in so I knew he would be really tired and I really wanted him to sleep. He did come home early to see me off and wish me luck. On my way there I cried and even went the wrong way, despite that it's attached to my cancer center where I go all the time!! When I realized I was on the freeway instead of Akers, I accepted the fact that I was a lot more upset about than I could have ever guessed and I wished I would have had one of them come with me. Once I was there, I gave my cells one more pep talk and told them to look their best for their picture. The scan was regular, same ole thing. The technician said I looked 24, I loved that!! Maybe she was just trying to cheer me up, I thought I had my game face on, but maybe it wasn't staying on. After the scan I decided to skip their restroom since it is usually dirty and I was outside of the "patient only good restroom" range now. I hurried to my car thinking of a clean Starbucks restroom, coffee and a fast breaking pastry! This test requires a 4 hours fast, and a 48 hour low carb diet. I was already backing up when I saw a truck that looked just like my dad's. At the very same second, I saw some guy was chasing me down yelling my name. My dad came and had been waiting for me in the lobby! I loved it!!! He treated me to Starbucks and I texted my husband who had been too worried to sleep that everything went fine and in would be home as soon as I re-carbed and caffeinated myself. I'm not sure if it was the coffee, my dad surprising me, or the carbs, but I was suddenly not worried or upset anymore. I get the results on Friday afternoon, both my husband and my dad will there for that. That's one I will either have to be carried out of or I will be skipping out of. I'll let you know as soon as I can, either way, this is the beginning of one of those very long weeks! I will be staying as busy as possible, I borrowed 4 books and bought a cross stitch project in case I find myself with a few minutes alone and bored. Right now I'm watching the VMA's again and really just want to know how Justin Timberlake can perform while getting on and off an escalator?!?! I have to time my exit and watch it the entire time, I'm still afraid I will fall every time I get on one and he can dance his way on and off while singing and being filmed!!! He didn't even look down!!!